the long awaited appointment

Today was the appointment we have been waiting for, the neurologist. He reviewed the brain scans from 2020 and used big words, which I had no idea what they meant. She failed her test with a 4 reality began to sink into my whole body weighing me down inch by inch. 

Then he said it .... 2 to 5 years WTF I never asked for that, I never eluded to needing to know that WTF cause I forgot everything from that visit but that... How the fuck so you just not think about that. 

I get it the time will come but how does he know, how does a timeline get put on someone. Ugh my heart hurts my heard hurts and I just don't know....